Tuesday, August 29, 2006

LIFE.....!!

LIFE is at the Crossroads...
Crossroads offer Choices...
Choices are Tempting...
Temptation leads to Restlessness...
Restlessness results in Anxiety...
Anxiety Hurts...
Hurt gives birth to Pain...
Pain remembers Love...
Love ends LIFE...

Saturday, August 26, 2006

The Masks....!!!


She was excited and nostaligic as she entered the exibition centre. The theme of the exibition was ""THE MASKS"". She was enthusiastic and full of energy as she remembered her childhood days, when she would wear all sorts of different masks of Ravana, Rama, Superman and Devil etc. She felt a shiver of fear as she recalled how one night her brother came suddenly in her room and pranked her with the devil's mask. Oh Dear!! It still gives her shiver and to her brother the tons of laughter (Two contasting faces one cheerful and other dreadful both the part of same scene).
She gazed through the window of distinctly different masks, with some rectangular, some square and some circular in shapes. But the presence of one mask haunted her. The presence made her both uncomfortable and serene at the same time. She kept gazing at the mask for boundless time.
It was a semi - circular mask like a half- moon, striving to achieve its full shape and size, a full maturity, striving to attain a complete circle. It was in motion, as if running endlessly to conquer its peak, to quench its thirst, and to satisfy the quest. Yet it reflected the silence - A silence that had a sound and this sound could easily be heard inside the girl who was gazing inside at it, as if questioning the identity of the mask.
What made you stop at me in the crowd of so many beautiful and popular masks? - asked the half shaped moon mask. The voice was clear, true and vibrant.
Lady replied (surprisingly with no surprise), " One cannot control, what one can't measure and I am unable to control myself. There is something subtle in you. You had a past that teaches something, you are having a present that seeks something and you will have a future that would.....
"""..............Who are you and why are you here,""" interrupted the Mask.
" I am a seeker, a discoverer, a lover and I am a...... I don't know", replied the lady.
Mask replied, " I will tell you my story or whatever you want to know but before that you will have to fulfill a condition....
""Whats that??""....asked the lady.
Replied Mask, " You go out for one month, be a gypsy, a nomad and observe each person as a new mask - a different mask. Seek answer to - Why do people fake their true self ? Why do they fake with different masks on? I am the tangible mask, but what happens to the intagible masks that each of you wear at every next second? Whats the need of the mask that gives pains and lies to both - the one who wears it and who sees it? Why can't people remain as they were born? Why do they cheat? Why , Why and Why......???......Get the answers and i will tell you my story."
Girl challenging the moment left the place immediately and began her journey to seek, to evolve and to find the answers. During her journey she observed pain, hatred, misery, cheat, deciet, selfishness, but also she did observed Peace, Love, Content and felt Him.....
A month passed and she reached the place to meet the mask. She was excited but had fear...she would get the answers that she had waited for. But all her hopes and anxiety turned down as "The Mask" was no more there. The place was empty and blank but one corner of it looked like a Black Hole.
She walked back home and on the way saw the mask she was looking for. It was worn by other man - a stranger, and then she realised that the tangible mask that she was searching for is not the real essence but to remove the intangible, hidden, subtle masks behind the real faces.
........And then she began a new journey to find the real herself, the innerself, away far away from the haunting MASKS.....!!!!

Bus Yun Hee...(Just Like That..)


Today, sitting in the class, I wanted to write so much. There were so many subjects that I had thought of, so many experiences to be shared and an innumerable questions that i seek. But something stopped me, something that exists in the realm of realms, hard to define, hard to put into words but very easy to feel.
One moment I was on relationships and the other moment why people are so obsessed by their pasts. I wanted to write on SIMSR and the other on PGPIB class. I wanted to share something that haunts me and the other moment - How I haunt others...
Gradually as the class moved on from principles of warehousing to store management, one of my friend came as a saviour who provided me with an i-pod as I saw other friend of mine gulping the book "THE GOAL" as if asking me about my LAKSHYA in life.
As I was dancing to the beats of Bryan Adams, I surprised myself as much as I did to others by suddenly volunteering to read aloud in the class, without knowing from where I was suppose to carry further. Thank God!! I had a few loving souls around me to provide me with a gush of an air which saved me from the Adams effect.
Buzz!! a sound occured, it came from deep inside me, I realised and felt a fear in me, as my heart beat increased......
.............Yes I wanted to fall in love or I was already in love, as the hopeless hope remined me of an endless wait, waiting for its culmination both mutually and exclusively.
As the class was about to end I realised that I had pen down something and had defeated the subtle, cocealed factor that stopped me from writing.........
.........and then I wanted to CRY..!!!!!

Friday, August 04, 2006

ENDLESS WAIT..........


Amidst the dark shadows of FEAR, DRUDGINESS, HATE, GLOOM..., She came as a benign presence like a silver lining behind the dark clouds. He welcomed her with open arms, pumping heart, chilling spine, tiring legs, watering eyes that were as wide as a sky, waiting only for that lining (a benign presence) to rest..
Lo! There she came, with an angelic smile and a fresh hope like a morning dew and wept at his GRAVE......!!!!!!!

Who am I ??....??



From where have I come and where am I going..?? Whats the purpose of my being on earth..?? Am I here for some cause that would make me immortal or rather I would simply vanish in the ashes..??
With my cry in this world, a relationship was built, happiness evolved, responsibilty shared and a hope emerged. HOPE for growth, movement, development and a hope for a better tomorrow.
But is this just a phase a stop, from one life to another..?? or is this a final destination..??
At the crossroads of my life, like a confused soul, I seek answer for my presence..?? I seek myself.... I seek answer to WHO AM I ....??????